Adventures du jour!
I had to write the scene where Goth Girl runs into her abusive ex for the first time since she got out of the relationship. It snuck up on me.–It went better than I had been dreading, if still too close for comfort. My ex and hers aren’t the same person, not even in disguise. I based him on someone else, but I used many of the same tricks. But doing all this inner work lately gave me some perspective, and Goth Girl isn’t me, so I let it be more fun than I expected.
I ran into some lines that hit hard though. Here’s one:
It had taken her *so* long to figure out that it was all on purpose.
–Same, Goth Girl. Same.
Brainstorming a project with a friend, too early to talk about, but I slept on it and found a sore spot that it feels right to head towards, based on something she said. I’m not sure how to put it into words yet, though, let alone anything productive for the project.
I got up in a good mood, then immediately starting having one of those stupid, unfair arguments you have in your head instead of out loud. And my hip tensed up.
Me: Is this argument what you want to have happen? Do you really want it to go that way?
Muscle in my hip, a.k.a. Murder Kitten: Nnnnnnnnnoooooooooo.
Me: You have options. Nobody’s going to *make* you get in an argument. You are *not* required to get in an argument, because a) it’s not an abusive situation where your anger is being used as a management tool, and b) you wouldn’t have to respond that way even if it were. Have you considered just letting it go? Or even taking it as a compliment of sorts?
Murder Kitten Hip: But wah! Bitey! GRRR!
Me: Indeed. But consider it.
Yoga: I read more of Yoga Anatomy, on synovial joints, but it fried my brain and I’m going to have to read it again. If it gets too bad I’ll type more of it in.
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Balanced Joint Space
We can use the idea of balanced joint space to bring attention to the quality of the movement happening in a joint. … In a healthy, functioning joint, the fluid space between two bones continually response to the forces traveling through our bones and ligaments and into the joint by adapting and adjusting to those forces to create a dynamic state of balance.
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I keep thinking about my double-jointed knees and how sore they get. I know I’m damaging myself somehow but the thought of figuring out how to fix that, let alone stop doing it, is overwhelming at the moment.
Actual yoga was good this morning, although the new balance poses left my legs shaky. I think that’s good; I was able to hold the pose stable enough for my legs to get tired–versus tipping over continuously. Still clinging to chair.
Walk: A friend (Casi!) gave me advice on how to take pictures of what I’m thinking is Chinese lantern plants. The surfaces of the plants reflect light in all directions; it’s hard to get the autofocus on the phone (that is, a “dead” AI construct) to pick a good point of focus on them. She suggested that I try aligning the camera with one of the surfaces and focusing on that–I think that’s how she put it.
I headed out with Ray this morning on her way to the bus stop, then veered off toward the park I like. (There’s another of the Chinese lantern plants on the way.) I tried the technique on the plants: 1) Frame the shot generally, by looking at the point I want to feature as well as the volume/negative space that I want to define; 2) Look for a flat plane close to parallel to the phone; 3) Focus on that, using a fingertip to scootch the little focus icon around the phone screen as necessary without moving the lens. CLICK. It seemed to work pretty well, including on pictures of trees with Spanish moss, which I always find tricky to take pictures of. I even got a halfway decent picture of berries, by focusing on a nearby leaf.
I am INORDINATELY pleased.